I was having the BEST dream ever . I was in paralysis sleep or whatever it’s called where you control your dreams while asleep , or so I thought . I was living my dream life . I was dating the guy I currently like , but we were a few years older . he had made it big , and he spoiled me rotten . I was CEO of the company , right by his side . in the dream , I had referred to myself as “his girlfriend” and he says “oh so you’re my girlfriend now ?” “yes . what was I before ?” and he gets down on one knee and asked me to marry him . I said yes and started crying . I said I had to go call my mom and he said she already knew ; he asked all of my parents for their blessings . I told him I didn’t want to go out and celebrate ; I just wanted to lay in bed . I sat up and told him that I fell in love with him so long ago and didn’t stay with him because of his money . I wanted to be by his side forever and through whatever , always being the extra support and strength he needed . I said I was so happy that the love he had for me far surpassed my expectations . he replied “from the moment I met you I was like damn this girl is different . as I grew to know you , it became wow this girl is special . as I began to love you and explore through your mind I knew that I had to spend the rest of my life with you . I know what’s in your heart , and I know how hard you love . you don’t have to explain anything to me . you’ve been through a lot . you’ve been hurt . broken . banged up . but I can love you past all of that so you don’t have to hurt anymore .” I cried some more and we laid down for a nap . he tilted my chin to kiss me and as we started to make love , he literally vanished from my dream . I was just sitting there , same bed , same clothes , no him . I felt like I was in full control of this dream , but I feel like something kept it from going . before I went to sleep I asked God to show me if he’s worth it . was this His way of telling me no ? or am I just destined to never find the right person for me ? yeahh it’s early but the same trends keep happening and I’m starting to worry that I may never find someone to utter just those few words that I’ve been waiting to hear for so long .
