some people call me conceited ; some say insecure . and i can’t disagree with either . i have a serious complex . lol like i’ll leave the crib like “damn i look good” but then someone else will get attention and i won’t then it’s like “ohemgee he must think she’s prettier than me .” this probably wouldn’t be a problem if i wasn’t such an attention whore . so i guess i should work on that .
i also get really insecure when someone takes my spot . like her . when i think about how long they’ve been together , how much fun they have , i start to think that what we had must have been boring , and looking at her i start to think wow maybe he finds her a lot more attractive than me . actually writing this is making me realize that that may even be the truth “/ like usually i’m like “i don’t even know what he sees in her . he’s just doing this to make me jealous . he’s not really into her .” but they’ve been together for almost a year and a half and she actually is really pretty .
most of my insecurities come from that relationship to be honest . like if the one person i still love wants me gone , then what am i ? nothing .
but people tell me “oh wow you’re gorgeous” “damn you’re beautiful” and 3 seconds after the “ohemgee thank you !” it’s like … nahh s/he was lying “/
